Acceptance
I have always tried to manipulate other peoples actions and thoughts. I could never just let something be if it concerned me. I think What acceptance means to me is a willingness to comply with circumstances beyond my control. This is something I have never been good at. When I learned that I wouldn’t be going on the steamboat trip, my first thought was to find a way to control the situation in my favor. Finding a way to make sure I was going. Over this past weekend I sort of had a wake up call while I was talking to a friend. I came to the realization that despite my frustration, there is a valuable lesson to be learned here. I now see that no matter what I do, I will never be able to change things that have already been said and done. The only thing I can control is myself and my future actions. I think it’s a blessing in itself that this is happening to me. I have never been able to accept life’s consequences when I feel I am in the right, so this situation is truly a test of my willingness to comply.