Acceptance


I have always tried to manipulate other peoples actions and thoughts.  I could never just let something be if it concerned me.  I think What acceptance means to me is a willingness to comply with circumstances beyond my control.  This is something I have never been good at.  When I learned that I wouldn’t be going on the steamboat trip, my first thought was to find a way to control the situation in my favor.  Finding a way to make sure I was going. Over this past weekend I sort of had a wake up call while I was talking to a friend.  I came to the realization that despite my frustration, there is a valuable lesson to be learned here.  I now see that no matter what I do, I will never be able to change things that have already been said and done.  The only thing I can control is myself and my future actions.  I think it’s a blessing in itself that this is happening to me.  I have never been able to accept life’s consequences when I feel I am in the right,  so this situation is truly a test of my willingness to comply.